thats such a nice thought......the idea of something like that working out....

unfortunately the time is coming up where i literally have to chose between two different paths. one will allow me to stay down south, with all my friends, my job and my Trainer. the other will allow me to move up north, with my husband, college and money.

i talked to my husband about what i desired. he flat out told me that it wasnt possible, there was no real compromise, other than for me to compromise and give up that desire.

*sigh* so i have until the end of this month to figure out which path i really want. some people say, the choice should be clear, since you should truly desire one over the other, but unfortunately both paths are even.

to make things harder, i've fallen for my Trainer. but i still love my husband. i've always believed that there was no "one true love", that you could have many loves through out a lifetime, but i never thought it was possible to love more than one person at one time.

i truly don't forsee me and my husband making it.....i think we both want different things out of life. but i need to give the relationship more attention. when i left before i just packed up and left...left him and everything behind. i need to straighten things out first.

thanks for all the input though, i appreciated everyone's comments.