yes plus i feel it's unfair to everyone involved. i mean i know if i loved someone, but they also loved another like they loved me......i'm not sure if i could handle that. i mean, we all know i like being number one :P

well unfortunately my Trainer didn't share my feelings. it's amazing to me to find myself at this age and just now coping with a broken heart. it made me realize how lucky i've been in past relationships and also how awful i've been. i've always been the heartbreaker so to say. now i realize i have more things to atone for.

so that makes the decision a little easier. i'm leaving to go back to my husband at the end of the month. but another wrench in the system......he's getting deployed to iraq for a year. he got the official orders last week. now i find myself faced with a whole new problem and set of pains and torments.

but hey that's life right?

again thank you all for your opinions and views and support.