my god maddie. I feel as though you've taken a page out of everything I'm going through. I litterally had to run for tissues at this point:

and if I wasn't married. . . I can't
think that. I've thought it too often lately. I am married
and, until I met you, I didn't doubt my love. I can't risk
it for what might not be real.

Thank You. Thank You Thank You Thank You.