Thanks for the comments all. This is a pretty positive forum seems like. Silke, I've thought about that actually and yea, I am concerned sometimes that maybe I use the way we do things as a crutch. I think I'm fairly self-sufficient now though, certainly more than I was. I mean, before we did this, I was in and out of rehab and constantly in financial trouble because of my spending "habits". Today She tells me the only reason She put up with it was because She knew why I was doing it.

But as for being self-sufficient, before I was hardly funcional and now I'm stable and becoming much more goal oriented. I'd also reckon that now I'm facing reality alot more than I was. It's amazing the things you notice when you're not sedated. The change between now and where I was two years ago is phenomenal. The fact that she is as happy as I am with the arrangement just reassures me that what we're doing is right for us.

I remember Her main stipulation from the start was that She'd never itemize things for me because I should be able to take the initiative in helping out. Sub or not, I'm still an adult and can figure things out. The idea was that She was there if I ever needed guidance or assistance, and She certainly has been.

Looks like I'm rambling. I'll leave it though.