Oh man, I am having a very good time these days.

just, guh. I'm fairly inarticulate this evening.

It's quite fun starting out a relationship like this. My BDSM in the past has been with someone that I was already sexually involved with, so it was always just an accessory to the sex life. With this guy, we haven't had sex yet. The first couple times we played around there were no orgasms on either part. I got smacked around and toyed with and beaten on, and teased, but nothing extremely sexual.
Today there was a blow job, which was wonderful, and he made me masturbate while he watched and told me what a slut I was. And those made the first orgasms of our play.
It's just very interesting, having the pain play come before the sex. Different and very cool.

The fun discovery of today was what happens when I get slapped on the face. Whole slew of reactions went through my head, first an outraged 'hey!' that never quite got anywhere before I felt myself just drop. One or two levels closer to subspace. A couple smacks and I momentarily felt tears start to well up, which surprised the heck out of me. They only barely started beforing disappearing again though, leaving me feeling off balance and oh so submissive.
*sigh* yeah... I'm not thinking so good tonight.

And there are plans for me to spend large portions of this weekend tied up in his basement. I'm gonna hurt.