Well I for one am hopefull that your life outside of the wires and box that makes up this place is once again so that you can behave how you wish, and talk with the people who help you feel like you know who you are. Being able to talk with the people here is blessed at the very least. However I believe that each of us yearns for that human contact that just can't be replaced by anything else. Not even this lovely place.
I most of all hope you are still able to see your children. At one point in my life I was also accused of some rather hiddious accusations. I beat the test, and am free, but at the cost of the mental state of the child involved due to the behaviour of the other parties.
I wish you well Talia.
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