I'm very sorry you've had to go through this experience. Now, where to even begin. I'm not going to make any effort to pretend that reading your post hasn't got me highly agitated. You deserve better than what you're being put through.

" She began to mark me permenantly, branding me with the letters of her name, 3 out of the 8 so far. i even had her initial tattooed on my body, actually she took me to the tattoo parlor and said it was what i was getting lol. but as it turns out, this was all just play to her i guess. "

Marking someone permanently as "play" is simply wrong. Period. Quite frankly you've been violated.

"i know its my own fault."

We all have to take responsibility for our own actions, yes. But being abused is not your fault. That includes a woman who would do the things she's obviously done to you. I would hope the bitch (and if no one else will say it, as one of the local main voices for sub males I certaily will) has a hard time looking herself in the mirror. But I somehow doubt she will.

"do dominant women really want submissive men as boyfriends/slaves or husbands/slaves? can it really happen?"

Absolutely. It can happen.

"or should i just resign myself to being single for the rest of my life and forget about finding someone who understands me?"

Don't give up the hope. You're worth something. We all are.

"i feel used but i asked for it."

Don't make excuses for her behaviour. She's abusing you and you deserve better. What is happening to you is wrong. You are a human being and you have value, and if I were you, as hard as it is, I'd run like hell.

She isn't worth your love. Anyone who would abuse you isn't. It's hard being a man trapped in an abusive situation, there isn't much of a system in place to help people in that position. But you either need to get out on your own or find help where you can. Judging from your words I'd say you are being badly mentally manipulated by this... person.

Nobody deserves to be treated the way you're being treated. You are worth better. Get out, fast.

I can't say anymore because I find your post too upsetting for rational comments and I know I'm already on thin ice with certain people around here. But please find help, or get out.

(I've in the past had it told to me from several directions here in not so subtle ways that my style can be too blunt and it can cause arguements. If that is the case here, too bad. I call a spade a spade, and I shine light on cockroaches when I find them. I'm not going to sit here and tolerate someone being abused.)