koppite,

i have to agree with everything TW said.

What this woman did/does to you is inexusable. She has taken your deep and emotional attachment to her and used it for her gain, she knows you are in love with her and she knows you will keep coming back for more.

'Nobody deserves to be treated the way you're being treated. You are worth better. Get out, fast.'

i believe that is sound advice from TW. But ultimately the final decision is yours. Sit back and think...if a friend of yours was being treated the way you have been treated, what would you think? You can be in love and have a healthy D/s relationship...just food for thought.

Your whole situation really upset me, but what upset me the most is that she permanently marked you for 'play'. That is extremely disturbing.

There are a lot of caring and compassionate people in this community, i am positive that any one of us will lend a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on.

Take care

*big hugs*