Hmm, seems like you'd be better off being single for the rest of your life than to be treated in a way that makes you feel used & makes you sick?

Yes of course there are decent people in the world who treat their partners with respect. They may not be easy to find, but you only need one.

You've proved that you have brains & courage by posting here- enough it seems to take control of your life.

No subby, male or female should let someone else run their life- you need to always be in control.

Tojo