The only thing I feel I can add to what's already been said is that submission shouldn't make one feel sick and less of a person...it should improve your feelings of self-worth and make one a better person.

Much better to be alone than to be abused day in and day out.

*HUGS*

Please, please, please make use of the people who have offered you help and, even though there isn't much I can do, I can listen. Let me know if you need someone to talk to.

*HUGS* again