thank you. i dont know how to make it sound more heartfelt. but after reading everything that all of you wrote this morning, i feel so cared for. i know the pain is a byproduct of the relationship and it will take time to go away. but just knowing that all of you took the time to help me figure my way through this hell has given me real hope. I will definitely write a few of you who offered more prespective.

You are right, all of you, she shouldnt have disregarded my feelings to benefit her personal situation. I know the brands are pretty much permanent, but learning from this is worth the scars. I can see it now as what it really is. Sometimes, especially when love is involved, I seem to see things for what I want them to be and not for what they really are. And it looks as though she was manipulating me. I should have known it after she had been cheating on her ex with her new guy. and who knows, maybe her new guy has something she needs. it wouldnt surprise me.

i cant say it enough. thank you, thank you, thank you. i had no one to talk to about this and listening to elliott smith over and over was not going to get me out of this. i really hope i can come back in a bit and give everyone a happy ending. or at least an ending. you have all been so understanding and nice to me. its a nice feeling. i really cant say it enough. thank you

koppite