koppite, I was so glad to see that you had posted again. Please, please keep in contact with us here. If you ever need an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, a sounding board, know that we are here for you. Have courage, have faith, and take care of yourself. If you want to talk, please feel free to PM me or anyone who has posted here. Don't feel that you have to walk this road alone. You don't.

*huge hugs*