Heartbroken - but its my own damn fault

[cariad]

jesus, whats wrong with me, i feel like one of those abused wives on Cops. lol. not that its a laughing matter, i was just picturing her in a wife beater and me with no shoes and matted, dirty hair, begging with the police not to lock her up lol.

Well, I have to admit that was the image, although a lot less graphic, that I had in my head when I wrote the post. I have the greatest respect for wives/girlfriends who are going through abuse since in my line of work I have had the opportunity of helping some, and even more poignantly one of my best friends has been in an abusive relationship for the past four years; so I know it is very rarely a black and white situation.

Thanks for the heads up, you are right, its easy to slide back into how things were, but I am not going to let that happen.

everyday and in every way, I am getting better and better.

I am pleased that you are managing to stick to your goal, and hope that each time you say no, either to her or to yourself, you find it a little easier. Remember too that if you slip up once, it is not the end. You obviously have a strong personality combined with wisdom and practical good sense; so pull on all your resources and get through this, however difficult it may be.

And just think. one day I am sure there will be someone who will truly appreciate your submission and devotion, and will respond by caring for you as you deserve.

Hugs
cariad