I think you already know what the answer is. You need to have a conversation. No, it won't be easy, and it probably won't be much fun neither. But if this is important to you, I don't think there is any other way.

I do understand about having a rebellious nature. I am a bit like this myself.

*pauses for all of the gasps of surprise*

If I were in a relationship where I could never cause a bit of trouble, I would be terribly unhappy. I am fortunate that my Sir let's me do this....and then reels me back in when I need it. Of course there are certain levels of respect that I am expected to exhibit towards him, and the hammer comes down quite quickly if I slip. But he still allows lily to be lily....and for that, I am forever grateful.

I expect the two of you need to re-negotiate some of the rules in your relationship. I don't expect it to be easy. But I don't possibly see any other way.