Life is so confusing. Man oh man, if it gets much crazier I think I'm going to hang up my blouses and head for the straight jacket.

The new update.

He did have a reason. And a very good reason. However there is still no excuse. His sister that lives out of state was involved in a serious car accident and he went down to attend to her.

I wrote him a goodbye email to give myself closure and he wrote back explaining what was going on. I haven't taken him back yet. We need to talk first. The last week has solidified the importance of reliability and the necessity of communication.

He's due back on Friday. However, I don't know if we'll be speaking Friday night or not. I told him quite clearly in my message to him that we do need to talk and for him to tell me exactly when he'd be available to speak. I will not spend another night waiting for nothing. It's too hard on me emotionally.

I am glad I did hear from him as at least I know that my intuitions weren't "off". That was throwing me for a loop really badly. If I can't trust my instincts, then what can I trust? Ya know?

Anyway... so it isn't in the crapper. Just yet. I don't want it to be, but I refuse, absolutely refuse, to be jerked along and left wondering when a simple 30 second email could have avoided this entire thing.

Heh, and the final irony: he has yet to read the journal because he's been so damn busy.