Have you ever had the need to laugh, cry, jump up and down and scream all at the same time?? After reading these responses, that's just how I feel. I also feel as if I've found just the right place to be. I must again say that it was the suggestion of Rabbit who led me to post in the first place and the encouragement of minx to add to this little narrative of mine. So many here have already played a part in this developing life story, and I am profoundly grateful.

Tasker, it was one of your posts that opened my frustrated mind to even the possiblity. I thanked you privately, now I am giving you my thanks in this way. ~hugs~ My sincere appreciation to you for sharing in the first place.

Ruby...oh dear, sweet, she-knows-just-what-to-say Ruby...for your response, well, I could weep. The thought and time you put into what you have said here blows me away. Ok, your stories are really, really, really good, and not to take away from them in any way, but this reply of yours is incredible! I hope anyone else in a situation similar to mine (and there are, so y'all read what she said too!) will benefit as much as me. I am going to take each question, each suggestion and sift through them again and again until they become part of my mental processing. And I will share all of this with my husband. If you aren't making a lot of money from being a life coach, you should be! Dr. Phil who??? (I might infuse some humor into my words, but the sentiment behind the thought is all the way serious!) I'm actually miffed that I can't stay up any later to go through your questions and answer them for myself now! And if my husband didn't have to wake up so bloody early, I'd be all over him with this right now. Someone mentioned something about patience...guess this is one of those times. But I am coming back to this ASAP! A wonderful gift you have given me, Ruby. ~big hug~ Truly...thank you!