okay for a little more clearence....

O/our relationship is cyber... and i know for some that means it is less than real... for U/us it just means we have certain obsticles that must be overcome... one of those is it that we can't depend on physical cues... so showing him that rebellion can seem impossible...

It's funny in away because i think much of what you are saying is very appicable to me.... i am and have always been in a postion of athority... In the work world i am middle management... the sub side loves the structure and rules... but it also means that i have people look to me for leadership... and to be honest i am good at it...

*grin*

it's so complicated at time... in some ways the pressures that are placed on me are strickly and squarely place on my shoulders by me... i have this way of over thinking issues... Master has suggested to me that it might be nothing more than an natural progression in my own personal growth... and your answer suggests that you on some level agree and i find that very comforting...

one of the things that still worries me is the intensity of this feeling... i just don't know how natural that part is.... but when i go to subspace i go fast and i go deep...the intesity of it is awsome... so i wonder if the intensity of the rebellion is magnified by the state i am in at the time....

i just don't know the answer...and i have a fear of the unknown... this is a big unknown... there is a part of me that wonders if at least in part i am not testing Masters resolve... and that scares me too....


redEva.. thank you for giving me somethings to consider that i hadn't thought of before ...if you or anyone else has an other suggustions i would love to hear them....

thanks
~d~