Hello d,

Our history is very similar though after a year of on-line we did meet in person and begin our lives together. That was 6 years ago, or maybe 7 now. LOL!

I would guess (based only on my own experience) that you need to rebel to be _sure_ that he is the Dom/Master he says he is. A year is a long time to go cyber only, believe me, I know this!

I don't know if all submissive women go through this, but I know I did. I had to _make sure_ that he was what he said he was. I know that sounds awful, but when you are only in cyber, it's wise to 'test' who you are dealing with because so often, people are simply not who or what they say they are.

Is there any possibility of meeting in real life???

I think that would solve much of the problem and put a whole new perspective on things. One can't be a cyber submissive forever and perhaps part of what you are feeling is a restlessness to make it all _real_ in real life as well as cyber. I don't know that I could have held on much longer than I did! LOL! We met about one year to the day we began our cyber adventure and it's been a wild joyride since then. Of course, now we have 2 small children and another on the way and so don't get to have nearly as much fun as we used to.

I truly wish the best to you both!

Pooka