What type of submissive are you?

[esclava]

There are times when either or both of us slip into "doldrums." For quite a while I would quietly wait for Master to decide to use me again. Sometimes life would roll right over us and I'd end up having ridiculous meltdowns out of feeling unused and neglected. Once Master finally understood that I need (not want) to be used fairly regularly, or at least to know we're still on that particular wavelength, things changed. I'm officially his "attitude adjustment assistant." It's now my duty to inform Master when I'm feeling needy, I'm not allowed to "suck up & deal", and life is so much better, for both of us.

All of that said, I take an active role in finding ways for us to enjoy ourselves and each other, even when a full-blown playtime just can't be in the works. I will leave a small flogger under his pillow when I get ready for bed, or a packet of needles and alcohol wipes, or send him a story by email. Just something to get his attention. It's understood that my little "presents" may not be used *right now* but at least the seeds get planted and Master gets a nudge.

And of course, there are occasions when I'm much more focused on more mundane things...kids' grades or events at school, my glass business, plans for our new house, etc. At those times the funniest things happen. We will be cooking dinner and I'll suddenly find a knife point at the back of my neck, or I'll find the lube and a plug on our bathroom counter. Or I'll be at the computer and he'll grab my hair, pull me out of the chair and push me to my knees......We may get "stuck" but it usually doesn't last long.

A thought on TFTB.....Master believes it can't happen. I might make a try for something, but it's NOT going to happen unless he agrees. No way can I force him to do anything. If I say "Master, please, I need to be whipped" I'm just putting the idea out for him to act on. No harm in asking.