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*licks tessa* i'm sooo glad i got to meet and play with you in the room last night!!! hopefully we'll do that again!
Girl! ~licks back~ You are too much fun! I had a time and a half misbehaving with you! Let's do it again real soon, ok??

I read through your "married Vanilla" thread when I first joined (in fact, I've read through most of your threads). I could relate to so very much of it, found myself nodding throughout (that's when you know it's hitting home). After listening to and heeding the advice of those much wiser than I, this issue of BDSM, as it relates to my marriage, has been easier to deal with. And to put it bluntly, I needed to get over myself and just deal with the fact that all this is going to take time to develop. What is so horrible about that? Let me answer- nothing. Who am I to say, "poor me" when I have a husband who is more than willing to travel down this path with me, who loves me for me (bless his heart) and who shares a trust with me that is unshakable? Again, on the advice of one who knows, I am choosing to focus on the positives of what are and what can be rather than focusing on what isn't happening right now. (I'm trying not to look too pleased with myself. Is it working? Insert spanking here if necessary. Please?)

You know what you have going for you? Besides youth (grr). You have an open mind, one that at least validates your desires in this. When I was your age (ack! that hurt to say!) I didn't even allow myself to dwell too much on what my true desires were. I always believed that something must be terribly wrong with me to want what I wanted. Because of that feeling, I projected my perspective onto my husband- if I wasn't going to allow myself to go skipping down the BDSM trail, I was just sure he wouldn't want to go there either. How vastly unfair to us both. And tragic. Too many wasted years! But that was then, and now, well it's happening for us! So I think you'll find your way with a bit more ease than I did. And you've said you're taking a step back, taking some time for introspection, to help yourself figure out what all this means to and for you. That's a good thing. You must ultimately be comfortable and loving with yourself before you can be that way with another. And if it is something you truly want, you'll get it. Something tells me that, for the most part, you usually get what you want.

And please, oh bouncy one , please stick around here! I say that for purely selfish reasons, but I also say it because you can learn so much here! I am pretty sure I am the world's worst submissive. I want to be better, am trying to become a better sub, but with my husband having minimal experience, this place is my education. I discover so much about submissiveness and Dominance by reading what the amazing people here have to say. I wonder if they all realize how much impact their words have. I hope they do and I, again selfishly, hope they keep adding to it all.

Oh, the petition is in the works. Wanna help me pass it around for signatures? Since there are those that actually believe patience is a virtue (I know!!! Why would they???), I think doing the rounds naked would help the cause, don't you? Then perhaps they will all be distracted enough not to care what they were signing.

So, you're a detail whore as well? Me too!!! Can't get enough of those explicit, raunchy details. I'll see what I can do about adding a few here, just for you. ~licks~

Just you wait and see. We'll be sharing those success stories soon. I can't wait! (damn, there's that impatient monster again).