I always used to swear blind that I would never willingly enter into a scene when I had been drinking.

However, one night, whilst I was staying at a playfriends house, I got a bit pissed, I'd discovered a liking for red wine. I knew that I was pissed, but I also have a remarkable capacity to appear sober, when actually, my mind is like jelly, and as talking wasn't part of the deal, he didn;t notice me slurring my words.

We got into a scene and I did things that I know normally I never would have agreed to, I know that at some point I was suspended over his landing by my wrists, and flogged, hard.

I was in a lot of pain the next day, and not the good sort of pain, I felt totally used. Now, I know that the blame lies firmly with both of us, I know how much I'd had to drink and knew I was drunk but didn;t want to upset him, but also, he'd known how much I'd drank, and I don't know many people who would still eb totally sober after 1 1/2 bottles of wine.

It definately made me reaffirm in my mind, never to mix drinking and scening again. I lost all trust in my playfrined and we haven;t played since. But hey, you live and you learn!