Tessa,

I finally got the time to sit and read through your whole journey so far.

I really am enjoying reading about this journey and am glad you are sharing it with everyone here. I know sometimes it isn't easy (refer to breast-jiggling demand & its retelling here)! ... oh, and btw, i also love the juicy details as well! i can share some of my own too if you're interested

It's really great to read your thoughts because I can relate to so many of them- and the behaviors you've described as well... even though we have such a difference in our situations.

Now, I have very little experience- living as a slave/ sub...
but... I had some thoughts occur to me about the concept of your master "going Dom" on you...

I think, if he is truly dominant- which it sounds like he is- it will flow naturally after time- whether the two of you are eating dinner with your son or having a randy old time in the br.

I can understand wanting the "domliness" all the time, of course- to me, it's a sexual turn-on, as well as satisfaction of an emotional need, deep in the core of me- as you put it yourself.... BUT... I am learning that being a slave is about: Am i pleasing Master? in anything and everything I do...

Now, i don't yet live with Him, so we'll see how it all enfolds then, but when I'm there from Fri. eve to Sun. aft. every two weeks.. We do a lot of day-day regular stuff... and I _always_ know who We each are...

We're in the store shopping for mirrors... We're in the car and joie's driving and Master's even in the backseat... We're at a restaurant and He pulls my chair out for me... I've even been over there with my son (2 1/2)... and even though I do not address Him as Master, wouldn't kneel at His feet, or other things like that, in front of my son...

It just never matters... We're just Us... always... I always feel safe and secure and loved by Him, I always know who's in charge of me and this relationship... even in those "vanilla" times...

I attribute this to Master- something I really love about Him, and can respect is that He is so self-assured (not in a cocky way at all) of who He is... He just is... Master... i remember talking to joie (this is His other slave, btw) and she said "There is no Michael who is not Master" and I understand that now...

So, Tessa, that's what I mean- if the two of you are right for each other in that way, it will just fall into place... no matter what's happening.

I think Sir Russell always has inspiring words to offer (in many other threads as well)- and I believe he had some really good ideas- & I noticed you finally started saying "my Master" rather than "my husband". Yay! Good job, Tessa!

And, again, these words are those just from a 31-yr-old girl who's always known (since i was 9, basically) she needed a Master (only the right one- 'cuz trust me, all those other men ~boys~ who came along got their asses kicked by me lol sort of) but has still only just begun to truly live that life (i've had other sub experiences, but very brief and not many).

So... sorry for the rambling!!!! But i saw you still wanted some input on post # 13... oh i forgot to answer that-
i wanted to say
COMMUNICATION
can't stress that enough

i mean.. i'm sure you've learned that skill already having been married 20 yrs! congratulations by the way, that's a big feat, especially in this day and age!

i think the two of you can still sit down and talk about the day-day stuff- who should do what, etc... now, he can have the final say, of course.. take your input, but make the final decision..

Anyway, can't wait to read more of the The Glass Flogger: Sleeping Subbie meets Master Charming... oh well something like that.. sorry, cleverness eludes me tonight lol