Questions on collars

[Flaming_Redhead]

*sigh* I wasn't trying to be politically correct, either. I was trying to answer the questions as I perceived them. People aren't always comfortable sharing their personal views as it leaves them open to criticism. That being said, I will now share my personal feelings which I am reluctant to do because things are still being worked out and because I tend to ramble incoherently when discussing feelings and such. Anyway, my collar is beautiful! I don't feel like less of a person for wearing it. In fact, the exact opposite is true. I don't really care what he calls me as his endearments range from his redheaded treasure to his wet little fuckdoll. LOL The collar reminds me that he values me very much and wants me for keeps. By that, I mean a long time. No one knows the future. *smiles* You get the idea, though. I feel special because I am the only one privileged to wear his collar when he could have a different sub to play with every day of the week. I am not A slut. I am HIS slut. I am not A toy. I am HIS toy. I am not one of many toys or simply his favorite toy. I am his ONLY toy. I am not disposable. I am wanted...needed. I have always regarded collars with some trepidation. OK, the thought of being collared would put me into a state of panic. *ggls* I had the same preconceived notions that I would lose a vital part of myself...the essence of ME! I didn't want to lose the freedom I had only just recently obtained. I didn't want to again be smothered...crushed...the light inside to go out. I realized that my fears were based on past experiences in bad relationships. A wise man told me to look to the future, not the past. A wise friend told me to go for it...that this was unlike anything I'd ever experienced before and would change my life in ways I couldn't even begin to imagine. I know that I'm happier than I've been in a long time. He truly wants what's best for me. He is helping me become my own best friend. I gladly allow him to use all my fuckholes, spit on me, call me names, tie me up, whip me, cum on my face, etc., some of which I have never allowed anyone else to do. Why? I do it because he has proven himself worthy of my trust and respect, because I love him and want to please him, because he works very hard to please me and because he loves me. *blushes* I'm gonna go now....