I think my mom knew that something was a little "off" with me while i was growing up. lol Of course, like everything else in our lives, she chose not to talk about it in the hopes that we could all pretend to be "normal." I remember masturbating to orgasm at a very young age and it seems like my mom was always telling me to get my hands out of my pants. In highschool, i worked at the local movie rental place and used to smuggle porn out in regular movie boxes. I'd watch it in my bedroom, on my waterbed, and use the muscle massager in very strategic places. yuummmy My mom even found the porn once and all she could say was, "i hope your father never finds out you are doing this." I told her i wouldn't watch it anymore....that i was just curious...stuff like that. I think i waited a whole week before i brought more home, knowing she would never check again. She also never questioned why the massager was always under my bed. :heart: