my journey

[tessa]

Maybe you'll get lucky one day, Tessa, and I'll decide to post pictures of them!

Please, please?? With a pretty on top??

Maybe pictures will come in due time... if I can get up the nerve to take some! *blush*

Anything I can do to build up those nerves, you just let me know!

I think tessa should join me in the boobie picture taking, since hers are supposedly big enough to enter as well!

I'm flashing a bit of mine in my av, but hmm. Maybe we could get together, do a pic thing. Delicious prospect, Fae.

[MajesticFae]

Please, please?? With a pretty on top??


Anything I can do to build up those nerves, you just let me know!


I'm flashing a bit of mine in my av, but hmm. Maybe we could get together, do a pic thing. Delicious prospect, Fae.

Oh yes. We should start a "submissive boobs thread" in the "self portrait section." Hmm... maybe I will take some pictures of my set.

[tessa]

Oh yes. We should start a "submissive boobs thread" in the "self portrait section." Hmm... maybe I will take some pictures of my set.

"Subbie Boobies" I love it!!!

I'm gonna ask my Devil about this one!

~giggles...hugs the boob-a-licious Fae~

[Selash]

My my.... Naughty little Fae and Tessa... Its so wonderful.... I think the Subbie Boobies thread might be a "BEST IDEA AWARD" winner.

[MajesticFae]

"Subbie Boobies" I love it!!!

I'm gonna ask my Devil about this one!

~giggles...hugs the boob-a-licious Fae~

*hugs the fab-tittied-tessa back*

Oh yes. Subbie Boobies.

[Echoes]

lol everyone! This is wonderful seeing the community laughing and almost colliding together.

Selash welcome and i am so happy you are settling in beautifully here!

Tesse...oh my! How can i say just thank you, for your inspiration, honesty, the joy and happiness bubbling out of you, pouring onto these boards, reaching out to everyone...you are beautiful in your heart, inside and out and this is so obvious.

Your journey, posting here gives hope, insight, such joy as you teach, direct, caress and and gently kiss us all.

Learning yourself, realizing your dreams, DD...both of you help us learn us.

Sharing your joy, sharing your errs and disappointments, or even expectancies
of what is not attainable or beyond realistic, nevermind realistic and attainable, yet life just doesn't allow...

and most importantly sharing the love you both have for each other and for your friends...everything of you is a precious gift that touches each and everyone one of us.

...for caring...

Simply thank you

~hugs~

[tessa]

Echoes, your words brought tears to my eyes and a smile to my heart. Thank you so very much for being so encouraging and supportive. It means more than you can know. ~hugs~

What I am finding as I go on this journey is that there is no way to see around the upcoming turn, no way to know what to expect next. Sometimes what I encounter feels like a walk through a field of flowers, just so pretty and refreshing. Other times, it's a very dark place I find, one that pulls me in and down so far. Both places are important and incredibly special. Finding the balance between the two can seem like a hike up to the summit of the highest, tallest, most majestic mountain. But it's the knowing of what is waiting there at the peak that makes all of it worth the doing.

~re-reads that~ Wow. The blonde got a bit philosophical. Imagine that. Must be a slow celebrity-gossip day.

[tessa]

Along this journey, when you don't know what direction to go, sometimes it's best to just sit a while until someone comes along that can tell you which way to go. Because if you try to go off alone, getting lost is a good bet. And you might wind up somewhere really scary.

I hate those scary places.

[Rhabbi]

That is my vote for a subbie boobies thread.

[suchaminx]

tessa - when you are with friends - scary places don't exist ~hugs~

love minxy xx

[tessa]

tessa - when you are with friends - scary places don't exist ~hugs~

love minxy xx

minxy, you said just the right thing at just the right time.

Thank you.

~hugs and love~
tessa

[Echoes]

~hugs~

I still have 5 more days and will be back around mid-August, just not settled in for a bit.

~hugs hugs hugs~ !!!

[tessa]

ECHOES!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh I've missed you!!!! ~hugs and hugs and hugs~

I'll be thinking of you and looking forward to August!

~hugs~

[tessa]

Ok, I just had a "wow" moment. It had nothing to do with a sexual activity or the threat of a good, hard paddling. Now don't stop reading just 'cause I said that.

My wonderful friend, Ms. Red, said something to me that made me stop and think. It made me think about everyone I read about here that lives this out on a day to day basis, who try to make this D/s dynamic work in the relationship with their significant other and who sometimes get frustrated with it. I think what she had to say is rather brilliant, so I'm gonna share with all you who read this. I will add that I was venting a bit to her- about the difficulties when two people are so different and when life gets in the way and when there's not enough time and blah, blah, blah. She listened to me and gave me the following:

I'm sure you've gathered that not very many people are actually able to accomplish it (living a 24/7 BDSM lifestyle). The reasons vary from living too far away from each other to having children around all the time. Many things make it impractical. There are the fantasies we live with, and then there's cold hard reality.

See? Like I said, brilliant. She sent me focus and perspective. And she reminded me that it is all worth it. I hope anyone else reading this gets the same thing from it.

Love you, girlie! ~big squishy boobie hug, albeit with tears~

tessa

[suchaminx]

tessa ~hugs~

~hugs~ for Red too

I read the original post of Red's and have to say it does make perfect sense - what a wise lady

Fantasy - makes your world rock and even just drifiting off into that world for a few seconds makes the reality seem worthwhile - because if we didn't have the reality of life guess we couldn't then have the fantasies.

Hope this makes sense to you - it does to me *wonders if maybe I am in my own little world this morning*

~love and hugs~

minxy xx

[tessa]

Hope this makes sense to you - it does to me *wonders if maybe I am in my own little world this morning*

~love and hugs~

minxy xx

It makes perfect sense to me, minxy. So, if you sre in your own little world, I must be there with you. That sounds pretty perfect as well.

You are just so wonderful!

~hugs~
tessa

[Flaming_Redhead]

pppfffffttttt *blushes* Wise my ass...more like a wiseass!

[tessa]

I notice you're working on that accepting-a-compliment phobia you have.

~big squishy boobie hugs again, 'cause it feels so good~

[Flaming_Redhead]

LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It shows that much, huh?

[tessa]

Well, since I noticed it just now, in my own thread of all places, I'll do the deed here.

Post 1000. Wow.

It's easy for me to spot that phobia, Red. I deal with it everyday, so I should know all about it. I should. Doesn't mean I do so well with it.

This finding a balance is tough stuff sometimes. But it's worth the doing, so I do it. One day...

tessa

[MajesticFae]

*giggles and hands tessa a cookie* Yay! 1000 Post cookie!

[tessa]

*giggles and hands tessa a cookie* Yay! 1000 Post cookie!

A famous Fae cookie!!!! Now that's worth celebrating!

~hugs the cookie cutie~

[nk_lion]

Wow.

I always read the last couple of posts of this thread, but never from the beginning. So today, I spent a good half hour reading from the first post, and all I can say is wow.

Tessa, congrats on your willing submission to your husband. All I can say about the hard times in life is that without them, how would you know about the good times then? I find it awesome reading your thoughts and experiences.

And in a way, this thread has taught me so much about a bdsm relationship, and for that, thank you, and to all others who contributed their experiences and thoughts as well.

May you in the distant future look back with complete happiness.

[tessa]

Wow.

I always read the last couple of posts of this thread, but never from the beginning. So today, I spent a good half hour reading from the first post, and all I can say is wow.

Well, thanks for taking the time, NK. Real nice of you to do so.

Tessa, congrats on your willing submission to your husband. All I can say about the hard times in life is that without them, how would you know about the good times then? I find it awesome reading your thoughts and experiences.

I really deserve no congrats as I can make it all so very complicated and difficult. But it's true what you said- without the bad, you don't know the good.

And in a way, this thread has taught me so much about a bdsm relationship, and for that, thank you, and to all others who contributed their experiences and thoughts as well.

I'm glad you think you've learned something. Care to share it with me as I'm still clueless?

May you in the distant future look back with complete happiness.

That is beautifully said. My sincere appreciation. ~hugs the lion~

tessa

[Rhabbi]

tessa,

Shame on you. Stop being so humble. do you have any idea how many people here look up to you?

[cadence]

tessa,

Shame on you. Stop being so humble. do you have any idea how many people here look up to you?

Yes I am one of those people.
I only wish I was able to write my own journey, but I haven't even left the driveway yet.

[tessa]

~hugs cadence~ Sweetie, we need to talk.

tessa,

Shame on you. Stop being so humble. do you have any idea how many people here look up to you?

I'm not being "humble", Rhabbi. I am being real. And I am flawed beyond my own recognition sometimes. I am no one to look up to. And that is the simple truth.

Do I care about the people here and how everything about this lifestyle ties into that? Yes, very much so. And I am willing to help in any way I can, if it's possible for me to do so. But the "shame on you" would be more than appropriate if I were to accept any praise from others. That would be wrong, as I don't deserve that at all.

Say I'm compassionate or empathetic or concerned. Hell, say I'm a silly flirt. I'm good with all those descriptions. But no one should mistake me for someone they should look up to.

Just my thoughts on it.

tessa

[pixie_dust]

You may be right (maybe not), but we still look forward to your words and the warm fuzzies you give us all. *hugs*

[nk_lion]

Well, thanks for taking the time, NK. Real nice of you to do so.


I really deserve no congrats as I can make it all so very complicated and difficult. But it's true what you said- without the bad, you don't know the good.


I'm glad you think you've learned something. Care to share it with me as I'm still clueless?


That is beautifully said. My sincere appreciation. ~hugs the lion~

tessa

Well, everyone's experience in a bdsm relationship is unique, and most here are already in one. Your story described the awkard beginnings, slow realizations and the excitment of exploration with. While I still have to find Mrs. Nk, I look at this thread as an inspiration about a normal couple going through an adventure together. Your husband is a lucky man, plus that Mustang is wickedly awesome.

So what did I learn? I learned that having a bdsm based relation is not easy, yet not hard if both participants are willing to work for it, from what you have written, and most importantly I learned that you are wildly happy, and that your marraige is a lot richer after starting this journey together.

I notice you're working on that accepting-a-compliment phobia you have.

~big squishy boobie hugs again, 'cause it feels so good~

Methinks you have a compliment phobia also. Everyone here reads your thread and gains something from it, while you may think you are simply sharing you thoughts and feelings, to a reader (at least to me) you are doing a lot more. So thank you, and you better accept it or I'll tell your husband to deny you orgasms for a week and say its a part of a supermod initiation.

[moptop]

Yeah, tessa, what nk said. And others. I learn hugely from this, I take hope, inspiration, pleasure, encouragement from it. You are a special person - you are humble, and your humility is one of your attractive traits. But please, take the compliment: you are also teaching, and showing great thought and wisdom. You take the time to consider the path you and your husband are taking deeply and seriously - as well as having a WHOLE lot of fun! good on you both