I have had doubts for sure.

First is actually finding someone because there don’t seem to be many subs out there my age. And the ones that are my age seem to be willing to take anyone up to 50 years old and there are plenty of male doms in any age range willing to take anyone from legal age +1 minute and up. So lots of people after the same group I’m after. And of course I can be seen as new, by comparison, and therefore probably a shitty dom, by comparison. And no, not woe-is-me, just what I consider to be a realistic assessment of the whole situation. I just have to find the one interested in the same type of relationship I am. Or convert a vanilla girlfriend.

As for the moral implications, I don’t see anything wrong with it anymore. However I did at one point think what I wanted might be wrong. Now I don’t believe I am doing someone any wrong or harm by wanting this type of relationship. If I wanted something more extreme than I do I might have reservations but I imagine I would have worked them out regardless. But who’s to say anything we do is perverse? Looking strictly at the kinky-sex aspect, most who would say its perverse are probably in that large group of married people flat out bored to death with sex.

Right now I’m fully content with the way I am and where I’m headed.