Aww, thanks for the kind replies. I was afraid my post would go ignored- that would have been depressing.

I agree with all of you. Staying true to myself...that was pretty much the reason I came back. BDSM /is/ me, and has been me for as long as I can remember. It's just an aspect I can't ignore and shut away. Ocean - specifically, I think my doubts lay with myself. I mean - I thought that maybe I /wasn't/ suppose to be like this...and that normal people wouldn't have to indulge in these fantasies...I thought there might be something wrong with myself, and that perhaps I wasn't suppose to be how I was. It's hard to explain. Sometimes I questioned the fantasies that I had and their implications. Sure, I imagined fun bouts of consensual kinkiness. But I also had darker fantasies that involved rape and even murder. Of course I'd never even /think/ about considering those in real life, but the fact that these dangerous thoughts even slightly aroused me...it scared me.

-sigh- Sorry about rambling on about that...

Ozme! -hugs- I remember our roleplay...that was quite fun. Naba and Claudia made such a cute couple. Pity it was kind of...unfinished. The blame's all on me. If you feel like jumping into it again, I wouldn't mind.