There is alot to think about. First off Yes I do have fantasys about utterly controling woman, Bending them to my will. But what keeps me from ever acting on such a fantasy is that I have a large amount of emphathy twards my fellow humans and animals. While i love a good bondage and tortore scene like the next perv. I do not want to see any one suffer for any reason. So I am not turned on by whipping, burning, Long needles through varius body parts etc.
Oh and I do not fantasys about male anal rape. Yea I know "doth protest too much' as the saying goes but I assure you this time it is real.
I am sorry that you experianced a rape in real time and congradulate you that you survived it and put it behind you. Not having experianced what a woman goes through I can not speak of your pain.
But one last question. If you know your master and trust him then it realy is not rape but more of rough sex you are speaking of.
Rape to me is total not consentual actack. Your walking down an ally and a large gang of thugs take the bag of groucerys away from you. Produce a switchblade knife and take you over and over again brutaly. Then walking away laphing at your bruised and batterd body. That would be a rape.
Not the kind of scene that a master and a slave would do. Were your laying on the couch with a box of bon bons and he cruely snatches it away. Grabbing you by the hair he roughly throughs you over the end of the couch and takes you with out any regard to your pleasure. Pounding into you over and over again. As he smacks your ass with his hand. And grabs your throte with the other. After he has had his fill of your bruised and batterd body he casualy walks over to the counter and picks up his half eaton tuna fish sandwitch. As the cum starts to roll out of your vagina...
Sorry got a little carried away
Mobius