Wow.
I always read the last couple of posts of this thread, but never from the beginning. So today, I spent a good half hour reading from the first post, and all I can say is wow.
Tessa, congrats on your willing submission to your husband. All I can say about the hard times in life is that without them, how would you know about the good times then? I find it awesome reading your thoughts and experiences.
And in a way, this thread has taught me so much about a bdsm relationship, and for that, thank you, and to all others who contributed their experiences and thoughts as well.
May you in the distant future look back with complete happiness.