Nice to meet you Sipgirl, and welcome back. I am newish here and find this place warm and inviting!

Let me start by saying that my deepest sympathies go out to you. I believe that is the single most painful loss a mother or parent could have. It is my biggest fear. I just cannot imagine the pain...

As far as the mirror...intresting...I have that same relationship with it. I am "dommish" in my life...active community parent, nurse, wife, homemaker, mom of 3. I am petite, know I have striking eyes (as I've been told many, many times by strangers) I have a cutish petite figure (boobs could be bigger, I am self confident and secure, but it makes me feel incredibly uncomfortable seeing myself in the mirror when HE makes me look at myself and says that I am beautiful. I think part of it is the vulnerability at those times that I feel..always safe..but still vulnerable, unsure, less confident.

Eye contact..thats another story...I crave it, and have been reprimended for looking at Him on several occations when he's instructed me to look straight ahead. Its diffiecult for me to not make eye contact!

Hispleasure