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Hi everyone. I am back after a very long absence first due to the death of my 10 year old son in 2004 and more recently due to the Court Proceedings we have been forced to endure through the last 3 years. The man responsible for my sons death (he was killed in a car accident while with his Uncle and cousin and no it wasnt his Uncles fault) has finally been held accountable for what he has done and our court proceedings are finally behind us. The loss and heartbreak though....that will remain forever.
Anyway just a bit of why I have been gone for so long.And a big thanks to those who have welcomed me back so warmly.
Here is the big question that I have. Hubby/DD and I are back into the lifestyle after some time away from it, and it is spectacular. The problem I have is sometimes while scene-ing he will demand I look at him or look at myself in the mirror...I absolutely HATE this!! I do it of course but HATE it. Im wondering if anyone can share some insight into why this may be? Anyone else feel this way? Maybe its as simple as not being visually stimulated? I dunno I just think its odd.

hmm first of all damn what an ordeal for you..i'm so horribly sorry that happened to you...and then the court proceedings...yes you will never get over the loss and hearbreak...but it will get a bit easier to bear as time goes on..

ok i don't like to look in the mirror anytime..it might be low self esteem or else a feeling of uncomfortableness looking at yourself during a scening...i've never tried that so i can't really help you out except to say hmm i think looking at him woulld be easier.. sorry i couldn't be any more help..i just saw this thread and had to respond to your agonizing ordeals..feel free to pm me anytime..