Quote Originally Posted by TaintedJohn
Why yes I would.
The threat of being alone had never bothered me before, although the prospect of dating pushing 50 was not that appealing. These thoughts were seen thru my then vanilla-eyes. LOL The idea of dating with my now totally BDSM wired brain wakes me in the middle of the night in a cold sweat and shaking. The vanilla days are over for good.
tj
I'm not so experienced with this forum, and I say that because I have no idea whether it makes sense to respond to something written last year. But I want to respond to this for two reasons:

1) John eloquently put into words something that I've been struggling with for some time. The last woman in my life was very vanilla, and highly suspicious of any sexual activity that did originate from a spiritual place. We were almost married. She is one of the most compassionate and beautiful people I've ever known and in still my best friend.
The woman prior to her was a pain slut, and just a slut anyway, in the best possible sense. She gave me a taste of something I couldn't lose if I wanted to, and I don't want to. I had no idea that kind and level of pleasure existed. So, I have a similar dilemma, as far as searching for a new mate. At times, it seems hopeless, although I know it is not.

2) Just wanted to add some high praise to this forum for providing this kind of outlet and support for unconventional viewpoints/lifestyles. It really is amazing that people have some place safe to go to bare their souls.

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