I think you need to get a reality check Chips.

She can't be you sub, because she is owned by someone else who pimps her out.

I knew she was the girl for me. Her eyes were cast down at my chest, but they'd dart up to my eyes and I could see she was not only delighted and intrigued, but surprised at her own reaction.
Wow, how perceptive . . . I'm amazed. When was this? First time meeting as client / customer?

Secondly, she wants more than money. She needs companionship and support. Today, I took her again and she declined my tip, saying "The first time you were my customer, but now we are friends."
Wow second meeting. Client / customer relationship again . . . and you can really read between the fine lines . . . I'm amazed yet again. ROLF

Why don't you save the money you spend on the pros . . . must be quite a bit . . . and spend it more productively in either dateing to find the right one, or, on a shrink.

If you want my advice I'd go for the shrink

And while you wait, why don't you read a few threads and learn what Dom / sub relationships are really all about.