My dear young beauty.

I fight with this one still at 50. But one thing you must realize youa re human. human beings make mistakes in life.

What makes you a special human being is that you feel so strongly about hte mistakes you make. You can learn from them, a lot of people don't or don't care to.

JUst don't take so much of the anguish on yourself. as Rhabbi said you deserve happiness. You ARE a beautiful young woman, inside and out. You ARE a good person who cares deeply about people (even when you make those mistakes).

My advice, for what it is worth, is to live and lewarn and pursue that happiness. By pursuing it and acheiving the sometimes fleeting happiness you will share it with others and you will (and do already) enrich other lives with your own shining light.

Youa re a wonder young one, you are.