annie
I had a set of parents that could not stand each other but were old school so stayed together. The fights were constant and long lasting. Dad was brillant but never figured out how to deal with mom so was absent even when he was there.
I promised my self that I would not end up like that and to date I haven't. So I am the opposite of your experience I watched a man get cut to pieces and now I am his opposite, never tried to be him.
I would rather be alone then be screamed at and live in a constant stressed life because of anyone even those I love.