Quote Originally Posted by Sir_Russell View Post
I am leaving a relationship that with a woman that I loved because she has a trust issue that I am no longer willing to deal with. Trust is part of both honor and respect and to love someone without that is impossible.
Awwwwww I'm very sad to hear that! I know that for me I can love someone without trusting them completely. Don't ask....I'm totally fucked up. Anyway, I won't meddle in your business or tell you to stay because I don't know the details. However, I have trust issues which I'm still trying to overcome, and it has taken my dom 6 months to get to the point where he doesn't see me as "barely" submissive. For months and months, I've resisted and been contrary at every turn, and he's tried everything to bring me under control. First month, it was telling me he was disappointed. Next month, it was lectures about disrespect. Then, the next month, he let his anger show and cut me to pieces with his words. Lastly, he withheld from me any attempt at dominance and pretty much ignored me. The last one gave me plenty to time to think about everything he said. It was a terrible time. I'm still surprised that he didn't leave. The last couple of months, I've been a good girl. I'm desperately trying to prove that I want this and can do this. He's noticed, but I can tell he's still a bit wary....which kinda hurts....but I brought it on myself. Not giving up on me means a lot, though, because abandonment is a huge fear of mine, even though I kinda bring it about. I know....I'm fucked up! lol

I'm not sure where I was going with this, exactly. You seem like a very intelligent dom who knows his business. I'm just sorry that morgan can't seem to find the will to swallow her fear and just go for it, especially after all you've done for her. The guilt would eat me alive.