I know just what you mean Catie!

My husband won't ever want to Dom me though he might play at it from time to time because he wants to make me happy. Will I ever be truly satisfied? Probably not. However since his happiness does mean more to me than my own, I will do my best to appreciate him for the wonderful man he is even though I will likely never feel that deeply desired submission to another.

I feel very fortunate he will at least play at new things. I do think I have corrupted him some. *winks*

Last night for instance I in my own mind was serving him, partly to make up for some difficulties we had the night before when we both felt ill.

I tried to give him a langram massage and then a prostrate massage. He enjoyed himself a LOT. It made me happy. Then he insisted on making me happier.

Life may not always contain everything we think we want but it has it's moments.

Fury