It seems to be beyond my control. Just thinking about the next pain that I will experience is exciting. The pain I like best is vicarious in that it is nice to have someone else to explain to me how it felt or what it was like to experience an erotic pain. That is why so many of us like to read stories of capture and torture of helpless victims, especially women in my case. Don't misunderstand, I would like to experience the pain first hand except old age and poor health does not allow it. You who respond to the various threads can do some of us a great favor by going into detail about your torture and bondage, why you really liked it, and what your feelings of fear, helplessness, and sadness were like. You can make my next pain really real. Please reply as this is my first day to write threads.