not having a Master, all my toys (insertable or not) are mine as yet and would expect, for all the above mentioned reasons, that they would stay that way - as i am only looking for One, i would hope they would just stay between us and if it didn't work out, that they would be thrown out (insertable ones, of course)

as the title of this thread is, toy chest.....does anyone know where to buy a really nice one to hold all their little goodies from teenage eyes? *giggles*

a seminar i attended a couple weekends ago had a great speaker (submissive) on the feelings of Domination and what the submissive requires from it. she spoke about how a submissive needs to know her direction, solidly and absolutely from her Dominant to feel safe otherwise she starts to "feel for the walls" - she looks for her safe walls as given to her by her Dominant - if He is not doing His job, she won't find them and panics - if He's left too much for interpretation, she'll feel for the walls, if He's given absolute direction she will feel safe and have no need to wildly feel for the walls of the security He gives her.

i think that that is a quick bite of the whole feeling, at least for me, of what finding the right Master will give me - i give Him my complete trust, love, devotion and utter submission and He in turn, by accepting the responsibility of that, gives me safety, security, protection and the freedom to be what my desires, His slave

idealic? maybe - romanticized? perhaps - impossible? never hehe

gem,
xo