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as the title of this thread is, toy chest.....does anyone know where to buy a really nice one to hold all their little goodies from teenage eyes? *giggles*[/QUOTE

wow have you still got some?? i wore all mine out lol
have you tried local furniture and diy stores? you can get some lovely ottomans/blanket boxes in all shapes and sizes which are ornamental and lockable too

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a seminar i attended a couple weekends ago had a great speaker (submissive) on the feelings of Domination and what the submissive requires from it. she spoke about how a submissive needs to know her direction, solidly and absolutely from her Dominant to feel safe otherwise she starts to "feel for the walls" - she looks for her safe walls as given to her by her Dominant - if He is not doing His job, she won't find them and panics - if He's left too much for interpretation, she'll feel for the walls, if He's given absolute direction she will feel safe and have no need to wildly feel for the walls of the security He gives her.
i can understand that, if i dont have routine which = security for me i panic and once that routine goes i can get stuck in a rut and find it hard to get back to it and thats when i tend to struggle,but sometimes due to outside circumstances some routines etc have to be changed or dropped.

but there are some areas of my life that both Icehawk and myself have over time have had to accept that i cannot give up control of,generally in regards to my children and family mostly which can cause problems occasionaly and even though i cant give it over to him for whatever reason i still struggle with that.
ive learnt over time not all is rosy and im not and never will be the perfect so called 'true' sub therefore how i feel being dominated is hard for me to put into words or a specific 'tag' to , as situations and feelings can vary at different times quite considerably.

eeks am i going totally off topic