Quote Originally Posted by naughtyswiss View Post
....Actually it hurts somehow as I am not willing/able to hold back on this anymore as I think I am missing part of my live. Anyone there who understands what I mean?
Absolutely!!

I read for years about it, fantasized about, talked about it in my vanilla relationships then finally it burst out of me with a deep need to finally have it.

I've now been two years actively seeking and trying to get involved in the lifestyle - in r/t my toes are in the water but that's about as far as I've gotten as yet. It all takes time and will come when it's right for me, this I finally do know. I've put myself in the mix and hope someone else comes along to take me out sometime

In the meantime, talking, learning, growing is all the name of the game!