DOMLORD thank you, your post actually made me smile and i needed it. no, i've got my exams to care for now, i refuse to give him more time than he already took from my life, i will [or am trying to] look forward now, plus i'm going back home (Greece) in 10 days so i hope i'll put it behind me.
i need to thank all of you for replying, and again i'm sorry if this is sharing too much, but a) it's helpful seeing it written down, it's like the fucked up part of me is now on the screen instead of in my head and b) i couldn't help but connect it to my submissive side, even though it was (and it's hard for me to type this) rape.
the womens' officer told me that all guards have been informed that he is not to be allowed anywhere on campus, but it still is hard to sleep before dawn. (it's already 5:30 am)
a big, very big thank you, again, i cannot describe how much i appreciate your words, even if you don't know me and i you.
bip0lar