Journalling

[gemmy]

Have you considered getting an updated security program for your computer to protect what you write? Just the peace of mind, knowing that your writing is not just password protected but encrypted might help you to do the journalling.

Also realize that not all things work for all people and that this isn't the only way to reach resolution. You probably have the block against the revealing of your deepest thoughts for a good reason. You just need to find a way to do the deep reflection that a journal facilitates.

Have you considered meditation? Find a nice submissive position to work from. Take your position, calm and center yourself and honestly confront your issue. Don't edit yourself, let yourself feel the emotions and truly think about what is important.

There are also a number of trust exercises you can do with your partner. One of my favorite is to blindfold my pet and verbally guide her around the house and even outdoors. Start slowly and then move faster as she realizes that I will take care of seeing for her.

Good luck and best wishes on finding what can work for you.

Thanks for the thoughts Euryelia, and yes having a partner to help work it out would be a wonderful thing Someday it may even be a reality but until then it's all me.

The quick stroke of panic that flashed through me when you posed typing my journal (encrypted or not) was frightening lol - somehow it seems worse for me to type it than to write it, why? I have no idea - just weird I guess.

I like the idea of meditating and will have to think more on it and figure out how I can do it to reveal to myself what's holding me back and why.

Thanks again