I do agree with you hun, even before I was ever put with the family that abused me, I was the subserviant little one fussing over everyone in my family and wanting to make all happy hehe - it is still that lil gurl inside me wanting to come out and play again
It has since worried me to some extent that those abuses that I endured are large in nature those things that now highly turn me on *blushes*
Who knows, truly it's all relative - certainly our pasts helped define who we've become today but isn't (imo) the core of who we are born as
Welcome to the madness and thanks for sharing!