well i dont know, my first real relationship was with a bueatiful woman and her husband I loved and do still love both of them very very much, allthough she died several years ago i still have very strong feelings for her, i morned her death with him with every bit of grief that one would expect if they lost thier true love, i still wish she was here with us now ( and i know she watches over us) and if it was in my power she would be here in person, my love for her and him was no less because it was shared, in all i was and am grateful that they chose me to share with them this thing called love