I think Arria says it very well - simply if you cannot talk openly with your Master, that's an issue all on it's own.

Also, your current child and health are really your first concerns. When I lost my son and then almost died having my daughter, the Dr. ordered me to have my tubes tied so I wouldn't risk my health and current child to foolishly try again. After about a year my yearning for another child was great and I'm glad of the Dr's decision. My daughter is blessing enough and I may have tempted that by trying for another baby and losing it all.