Totally agree with you.. I have had tiems where the tears fall immediately just as you have....
But it worries me that you cry everytime ineedneedles.. it makes me wonder if it goes deeper then that with you..maybe you re finding it difficult in your own mind to have it done to you... i am not sure only you would know this...
Whether it would be through humiliation for allowing it to be done to you or whether it be guilt as you enjoy it but are having a hard time admitting even maybe to yourself that you enjoy it.. or your emotions are just that unstable and sad.. i do not know.. but i think if it is happening everytime.. maybe it would be best for you to take a step back and thoroughly go over in your head why it happens and then decide how to deal with it..
Just my opinion
hugs
snow