Excellent. You should pursue those feelings... and ask your partner to bind you and do other things to you as a reward rather than as a punishment.

Then you can find your joy in being obedient AND get your physical pleasure from it as well.

Now... go tell him. If you're embarrassed, good. He'll like that too. It's all part of the service you're going to be providing as a good, obedient, well-rewarded submissive.

Can you tell I approve?