Oh my sweetie! *hugs you so tight, stroking your hair* Right now the best thing to do is let out those emotions that are deep within you. I am sure he has his reasons, from what I have seen here, you two had such a strong relationship and it is heartbreaking to read this news.

The first few days, weeks are horribly hard, try to stay strong, be focused and remember who you are, and what you are. You are stronger than you think. I still remember my first One...the memories and experiences never leave you, they still have a little place in your heart and soul.

You do feel worthless that you cannot find the strength again to move on, to just simply exist, it is soul crushing and terrible. That you aren't deserving of anyones attention, that there is no light and peace...anywhere.

Just..trust me, it does get a little better as time passes, I mean for me it has been years and years, but you never forget, you become strengthened, remember the lessons learned and take that next step slowly...baby steps.

I never thought i'd find another like the One I first had, but slowly slowly, the bond I have with my Master is strong and unbreakable and in a few days he will be here with me, moving from the UK to aussieland to be with me for good. In the start when my first One left it was hell, but somethings things have a strange way of falling into place in the end.

The lifestyle is about learning and growing, it isn't always easy, the decisions that are made aren't always clear in the start, but eventually you think back and realise maybe it was for the best and things aren't so bad anymore.

angel xx