HI Lion..
i don't feel you are being selfish.. all i read is maturity in this post.. and a very broken heart..
i am soo sorry this is happened to you.. a broken heart is one hard thing to mend.. some people say they do.. but to be honest i don't think they ever mend completely.
But i truly feel you did the right thing and are carrying on in that fashion.. giving each step time.. and being strong enough to allow her to be around her ex for a bit through decision making..
There is an old wives tale that referers to that..It was one my grandmother and mom must have said a dozen time to me alone if not more:
You are strong Lion because you were able to do that.. It has to be one of the hardest things to do in life as we know what the end result could be and the pain that will follow..If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.
Anonymous
But i truly think you did the right thing by letting her go to her friends with her ex being there... at least then you knew where you stood.. you didn't let your heart fall deeper if it possibly could..
Hugs to you and warm thoughts Lion .. that soon you will be able to get over this hump in your life and carry on .. and find the one that was truly meant for you.. So again you can truly be happy once more..
huggs
snow